Finding the Real Me in 2020
Adapting to the new normal
As I sit here and reflect on this preposterous year, it’s unbelievable that we’ve been in a pandemic for going on 9 months. The question of “what has 2020 taught me?” has been brought up multiple times, and each time I’m finding a new enlightenment to express. In a lime light, a better question is what has 2020 not taught me. Each and every day is a learning curve, and for the first few months of the pandemic, it seemed like I was given a new challenge to tackle every single day. I am not a person who enjoys change. In fact, I used to run from it. I am scared of the unknown. I like to plan out my days accordingly and I like to be ahead of schedule with my tasks. To break that down further, I have a monthly planner, a daily planner and an hourly planner. I am someone who likes to be on top of her game to the furthest extent that I can be. With the unknown comes uncertainty, and for me, uncertainty develops into anxiety. Unfortunately, though, I’ve had to readjust my entire persona and learn to take on uncertainty without complaint.
The REAL Roaring 20’s
I was so excited to jump into 2020. Lame, I know, but The Great Gatsby is one of my favorite books, as well as movies. In the years leading up to 2020, I kept thinking that this is the year; 2020 will be life changing. The roaring 20’s will be back and better than ever. In bizarre irony, the roaring 20’s is slightly back and bigger than ever. I don’t think anyone could’ve predicted the strangeness that this year has brought on, especially with a pandemic that is still rising each and every day, but I do think there is a lot that can be taken away from this year.
The importance of expressing love
Something I’ve held near and dear to my heart for years leading up to this pandemic, is expressing love to your loved ones. This year has taught me to take great gratification in that. We never know when the last time is going to be the last time, and I think when the world went into lock down, millions of people started understanding that meaning. Each night I make sure I tell my parents I love them. I don’t care how bad of a day I’ve had or if we’re in a disagreement; I still tell them I love them because I don’t want that one day that I don’t to be the last. Same goes for all of my friends. I used to laugh and joke about how expressing love to our friends was irrelevant, but it’s not. It’s just as important as anyone. Sometimes we are all lost in our own heads that we forget our friends are fighting battles that we don’t know about. 2020 has taught me to accept the fact that I cannot change the outcome ,but I can be a better person for other people.
Keep taking photos
Following that, I take millions of photos, regardless of what is happening in the world around me. I don’t care that a majority of the photos I’ve taken this year to “have memories” were actually taken at my house or simply in our living room, and not some extravagant beach resort. They’re still photos and they’re going to mean something more than that one day.
The little things truly bring joy!